5/365

You ever have one of those days when you wake up and want to be someone else? Not necessarily a celebrity, but just another person? Someone else with completely different problems? Someone with a different background and different thoughts and ideas?

I do.

I always wonder if my life would be different if I had actually stayed in all of the sports I attempted. Do you think I could be a really awesome soccer or softball player? Maybe not. Maybe I would just be more athletic (read: I would be more fit and maybe skinnier).

The things we did as children affect us in adulthood. The little things that we do in our everyday life affect us and sometimes I wish I could just quit some habits cold turkey. The habit I would like to stop? Wishing I was in a different place right now.

I can get a little wrapped in where I wish I was or where I want to be and forget to just be who I am right now. Do you ever think that you will never be the exact age that you are right now ever again? I'll never get to do this day over. My hair will never sit quite like it did today and I'll never feel exactly this way again.

As people, we are constantly growing and changing -- even when you feel stuck -- and that's such a beautifully terrifying thing. Even the people that you watch on television or listen to on the radio are evolving. They will never be the way they are today again. 

So, what I'm trying to get across is to love yourself today and appreciate the struggles. It's okay to want to start over but don't waste your time thinking about what it would be like to be someone else. You might wake up one day and wonder what it was really like to just be you.

catch you later,

Karleigh

“everyone you idolize wakes up scared to be themselves sometimes.” // Pete Wentz, Dec. 2005