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Do you know what really grinds my gears? I'll tell you -- I hate it when people hop from person to person. I have to let you know that you can never truly find yourself in another person. Have you ever read a "coming of age" novel? I remember being a freshman in high school and reading "Catcher in the Rye" for my English class. Halfway through the novel, I had to go to my teacher and ask her what the book was about because Holden Caulfield could never seem to figure out where his life was going. One minute he was at school and then he was out with a prostitute and then he was sneaking into his younger sister's bedroom window... Anyway, I just have a lot of problems with that novel. 

art by M.S. Corley

What I'm getting at is that Holden kept trying to find himself in different ways -- by being a student, by being a brother, etc. He kept trying to find himself through his relationships with other people. At the end of the novel do you know what happens to Holden Caulfield? Me neither. I can't remember because Holden never became his own person to me. He was never a distinct individual -- he became what he hated. Holden was a phony because he was never able to be himself.

If you attempt to find yourself by assimilating, you are never truly yourself. You can't be yourself while you're trying to be another person. You'll never be able to get it quite right.

catch you later,

Karleigh

"I like it when somebody gets excited about something. It's nice." // Holden Caulfield