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Alright, so I told you guys that I'm pretty excited about going back to school which is half-truth and half-lie. I am excited to go back to class, but the social aspect of college is always a bit scarier to me. I'm going in to my new school with a smaller number of friends than if I had attended somewhere else and they are all doing this year of school a bit differently than I am. So that's just a little weird for me and kinda... I don't want to say scary but that's probably the word that fits. I mean we do live in this society where you don't have to do anything by yourself, where you can usually get one person to be in the same position as you and stick to them. Then you have a support system. I sort of feel like I'm taking this next step without the support system that I've had before. So obviously it's a little scary.

I think it's perfectly normal to be scared before you take a new step in life. Actually, if you were indifferent that would be worse because then it's not like it's even a new step. New things in life are scary and exciting. They make you a little anxious. It's normal to be like that... at least it always has been for me. I'm quite an adaptable person. It probably doesn't seem like it if you meet me because I'm a worrier, but I do adapt to new situations well. I transitioned easily from junior high to high school and high school to college. I've not really ever had a lot of friends in school; I think last year was the most friends I've ever had at one time. I always saw school as more of a place to learn and less of a place to make friends. I don't know why... I just feel like I have to make good grades so that I can finish my education the way that I want to and that I can always make friends. Despite not having a lot of friends, I am pretty good at getting people to like me. That is how you form friendships and all. 

What I'm trying to say is that if you are getting ready to take a big step forward, it's okay to be scared or nervous about it. Your fear will fade within a few days and you'll be fine. My granddaddy used to say that the dreading is worse than the doing. I guess that applies here too.

catch you later,

Karleigh

"Be kind to yourself." // unknown