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Today marks the beginning of a new year. Have you made new year's resolutions? Maybe to hit the gym more? Eat healthier? Quit watching trashy reality television? I'm not ashamed to say that I have two out of those three resolutions myself. I'm sure you have others, ones that are more personal. These goals are for you and they don't have to be shared, but I have one that I want to share with you.

One of my new year's resolutions for this year is to leave behind my feelings of inferiority. This shouldn't be as hard as I feel it will be. I haven't quite figured out if this is built into my chemical makeup or if it is so easy for people to find this part of me and act on it in means to hurt me. However, I have been in far too many situations that have made me feel inferior. In high school, amongst my friends. In college, amongst my roommates. This holiday, amongst my family. And it has reached a point now, it has come to head in a way that I can finally say that I'm done with it.

In the past, I've cut these people off. Did you know -- or have you realized yet -- that you can't quite cut off your family? And, if you cut people off like I do, then you still regularly check their social media accounts to see how they are doing?

In 2015, I will not do this. In 2015, I will allow myself no anger for those people in their ugly ways because they are not worth it. I will only allow myself aggravation for allowing them to get to me. I will leave their evil with them. The need to hurt those that hurt you? I'm leaving that in 2014. The pent up anger and frustration that I find for those people? I'm leaving that too. Their names in my list of searches on Instagram and Facebook and Twitter? None of that. Everything that is tied to these toxic people are things that I leave with their ugly behavior in 2014.

I am leaving my feelings of inferiority in 2014 and I encourage you to do the same. Understand that your friends should not make you feel bad or as if you are in a competition. You should never feel unworthy to be around your friends or your family. Leave this behind. In 2015, love yourself. Treat yourself well. Realize your worth and don't let anyone make you forget it.

catch you later,
Karleigh


But I got my fingers laced together and I made a little prison
And I’m locking up everyone who ever laid a finger on me
I’m done with it
// Yellow Flicker Beat, Lorde