90/365

When I was a little girl, I had one phrase that I said more than anything else: "I can do it." I hate to say that I am still that way. Maybe it's the Virgo in me -- if you believe in the descriptions of astrological signs -- that commands me to be like this. I just do not want people's hands in my projects, or their help if I think I can do something alone. I thrive under pressure, so that's never been a problem for me. I love to be busy and I love having people look to me at deadlines and such. I just enjoy doing things (and I especially love when I am able to do them well).

However, I cannot always handle things by myself. It takes a lot of me to let go of something; it just so happens that my grip is very tight. I cannot stand to tell someone 'no' or that I'm unable to do something. I will stretch myself quite thin, and I do so frequently. 

What I am going to have to start telling myself is that I cannot do anything. I'm literally unable to be apart of everything, or to have my hand in all projects. However, I always appreciate patience when people give me a second to figure this out. I always feel that when I have to turn someone down that I am letting them down somehow but, like I said, I cannot do everything. 

This is a lot of confirmation for me. It's nice to have a reminder that it's okay to say no every now and then. Some days I really do need to just sit on my computer and watch vlogs by British people until I fall asleep. Some days I need to wake up at six and get started on everything immediately. I feel that everyday I wake up with a different personality, but you have to wake up and jump on your plans for the day. If that means that I get up six and get started immediately or sleep til ten and the only thing I accomplish that day is making food for myself, then I did what I was meant to do. 

Sometimes I just have to remember that everyday doesn't have to be GoGoGo but that, every now and again, I can stop and binge watch television shows on Netflix. 

catch you later,

Karleigh

"And now I'll do what's best for me." // unknown