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People are not innately good. This isn't really a new and shocking statement. There is light and dark inside of us and sometimes it seems like the darkness can dampen the light so much that it is hard to find. The light seems to get smaller and smaller as the darkness swallows it until you are in a pit of your own agony. It's awful. It seems to damage you as a person. So, you have to find something that brings light or you will drown.

And light does not come all at once. You see flickers of it and then eventually rays will shine upon your face and the darkness is hiding in the corner to avoid being hit by the light. The light shows you how wonderful life is, how there is so much more than the world around you and everyone has a different source of light.

For me, it's Jesus Christ. Some days, when I just feel very upset and just not good, praying helps. It lets me hand over my worries to someone who truly knows me when I don't know myself. Not everyone finds hope in faith, which is upsetting to me, because throwing your fear away allows you to believe in what is beyond. Your flesh is nothing. The world around you is nothing. Your life is small. But God is big. He's everything. He brings light in darkness and hope in despair. 

Sometimes it isn't all at once. Sometimes you have to pray for a long time. You have to fight an uphill battle. But you can only achieve true happiness, and you can only enjoy the light of life with The Lord beside you.

Next time you are overwhelmed with the world or with your darkness, take the time to pray. You may not be able to tell people around you what is happening inside of your head and sometimes you shouldn't. Secrets are sometimes only for you. You don't owe anyone anything. But The Lord already knows your heart and your secrets are His secrets so taking the time to pray can be cathartic. It is cathartic, if you believe. Anyway, next time you are drowning in darkness, in your worries or problems, please take a moment to talk to God. He'll always be there to listen and His wisdom knows no bounds. 

catch you later,

Karleigh

Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light upon my path. // Psalms 119:105 KJV